Anxiety, Please

There you are again
At the pit of my stomach
Banging and banging
A gong that sends
Booming alarm to my whole body
Alarm screaming for every
Nerve endings of mine to wake up
Wake up, I say!
Wake up!
Cleanch your fists
Or hold your rigid fingers out
Ready to grab at something
Something to save
Something to save you
Roam your eyes around
Find something missing
Or anything you lost
As if a part of your soul's
Just lying on the ground somewhere
You dropped by mistake
Something you just tucked away
In the back pocket of your jeans
Call out a name
His. Yours. God's!
Call out and maybe it'll come back
It - that something that slipped your hands
Slipped your mind like a reminder
To buy a jar of happiness on your way home
Something unimportant that can just be forgotten
Like your worth sometimes
Why do you do that?
Keep me on my toes
Ready to spring into action
Just as soon as something happens
As if anything worth speeding up
Is going to happen in my life any moment...
Don't lie to me
Nothing ever will, not even my own existence
Please stop
Don't tell me to fight and scream
My voice has been hoarse for quite sometime
Hoarse from all the help I wanted to ask
Answers I wanted to demand
Love I wanted to feel
So, don't
Don't send shocks of electricity
To my limbs just to make me move
I don't know what to do with this
Shell I keep blowing in air
Like hoping it a balloon that will
Inflate into something that will
Bring joy to anyone who wanna look at it
Hands are rough, eyes pierce
I'll pop
Calm down
Count with me
There you are again
Just wanting some comfort
You know I can't give you
Anxiety, please.