Beautiful Pain

As I listen to the song called "Beautiful Pain" by Alec Benjamin it reminds me of someone who gave me a happy memory and also a pain that I've been mending for a quite time now, He always makes my day fortunate. But then there was this day that I didn't expected to happen it was the day of his "Flight" he needed to leave.

I wanted to cry out, I wanted to burst all the pain that I felt since that time but NO. I stayed strong not expelling out any single tears from my eyes nor giving a deplorable emotion but my heart just can't restrain the sorrow that she felts, So after he left that day
I feel like my body lost its energy. My mind can't focus on the things that I'm doing, But most of all my heart was the one who got affected too much the happiness, the colors it all fades and turned black and white.

I wanted to get angry with him, I wanted to hate him for breaking my heart, I wanted to call him selfish, I wanted to hurt him like he did to me. But I can't.
My heart can't,  so even if he doesn't have the idea of how really I felt and what I've been through, I forgived him for making my heart broken, for making my life into a gloomy world because I realized that yes he gaved me a pain to sentiment but he's not that pain that I regret in my life. He's somehow a "Beautiful Pain"  for me cause even if he caused me stiches, resentments, melancholy and a painful burden. He's worth the pain cause he's the one that I've liked for who he really is.