Change in just a snap

Last night I was so bored so I decided to check my gallery and scan some photos that I want to delete, but as I was scanning those photos, I saw  a picture of me and my bestfriend and some memories came rushing through my mind. I remember those days that we were happy those times that i will visit her in their house just to lay in her bed and look at each other the whole time. Take stolen pictures of each other and laugh at each others faces. The point is reality hits me hard I just realise how much things have change between us. We become distance with each other and everytime i would make an effort to talk to her we just end up arguing about something. I didn't even notice that were slowly becoming a stranger to each other. I know that she's happy now with him and i can't afford to take away that happiness of her. Even though sometimes i want to tell her that i'm f*cking jealous of him. She said that she will never leave me for anyone but just as I thought. I can't tell her that I miss her so much because he will get angry, i can't say i love her as much as i want to because he will get angry. Everytime I make an effort to see her or to have a time with her, I'll end up being rejected.  I had to drive for almost 20 just to go to her house to say sorry because we have been arguing almost an hour for a stupid thing. I miss you but ofcourse i know i'm just a stranger with memories to you,I know you can't read this, I just love you so much that I can't afford to lose you