I don't know whether to stick or to let go. The heart may be is in conflict with itself. At times it asks me to let go, to be in peace with whatever is happening but sometimes it urges me to go back. A look at the past doesn't seem wonderful but it surely makes me smile, it surely makes me want for more.
Its been a year now, a very short period indeed. Life can be explained in fragments. When your life is spicy you either enjoy it or complaint about it but when your life gets dull you want that spice back. Even if that spice gives you hiccups still you want the spicy component.
Last year this time we were strangers. Strangers with a connection. A connection between a senior and a junior. May be that was the best relation. May be that was supposed to be all. May be if everything ended there life would have been better. No. We got close.
We gotcloser and far as well. There was nothing that bound us yet nothing that set us free. We often feel words are not enough to express what we want to. Its not a lack of vocabulary but its the feelings that are beyond explanation.
Today I am standing here having lost the count of fights we had and why. Part of me wants you back. Part of me thinks that its high time and moving on is the best thing. If a person wants to be selfish, want to think about his future is it wrong on his part??
Yet again when you will cross my path and my immense power of ignoring will get activated, I will ignore you, or at least pretend to ignore you, without you letting it know. I don't know if I want you back because the way I feel in your arms, the way I feel around you is special or I want to be the tough and selfish person and just let go off. Let go off and think that its high time to move on, its high time to think about oneself and plan for a perfect future without you.