I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. If only I could tell you about the galaxies I saw in your eyes. How beautiful they were. If only I could feel your warms hands in my face instead of these cold tears my eyes let go.
If only I could hug you tight, just to see if your heart would beat as fast as mine. If only you knew that it is still you. It was always you Ru.
But I guess you were close. Too close. You were so cold that my defense mechanism pushed you away. I pushed you away.
I’m sorry. Nobody knows about you. About the way I feel about you. They all forgot and think I did the same. That’s why it is so easy to pretend you don’t hurt me anymore. But you do, even without knowing.