There’s so much I’d like to say to you. But I don’t think I could find the right words even if you wanted to listen to me. I meant what I said, you know? I would have given you everything. I would have given you everything I had. You just had to say yes. That’s it. I broke my own heart for you. I broke it because I couldn’t bear it for you to break it yourself. I cried every night because of how much I missed you. And I still do. I still do Ru.
Tell me, what should I do? Everything brings me back to you. My own head tortures me. But it really hurts. It hurts that you never even considered being with me. That there was nothing I could have ever done to change that. Nothing about me would ever be enough for you to stay.
You said you weren’t who I thought you were and that you were not the right person for me. Oh, but can’t you see? Don’t I have a say? You don’t understand. I would have chosen you. Again and again. Even now… I would chose you in a heartbeat. Even knowing you don’t miss me. I would chose you even though you love someone else. Even though you used to push me away. It would still be you.