If only I could meet you in my dreams and tell you everything I needed to say… if only you could remember it in the morning and understand what happened. Why do I feel so guilty? You were the one lying. You were the one looking at me and giving me false hopes.
So, why can’t I just move on? Why do I feel like this? Why can’t I fill this void you left inside of me? Why do I feel so sad and sick all the time?
If only I could see you one more time, if only I could hold you, just once. Maybe that way I could stop torturing myself wondering how it feels to be embraced by you. Then maybe I could tell you how much my hearts screams your name.
I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s getting hard to keep my head quiet.