I can't remember our beginning
or how I met you
or how we became partners in crime
But we became best friends anyway
Only in a short period of time and
Later on, we became Sister
Not by blood nor in any legal papers
But stronger than that,
We became sisters by heart
And it is one of the greatest gift I've recieved
We set our goals
We both dream what can we become
I can still remember some of the dreams that we both build
I clearly remember how we build our life
And I miss dreaming with you
I miss you, really
The way you cry
The way I take care of you everytime your sick
I miss the times when I need to cheer you up
Or how you cheer me up
How we cheer up each other
I miss how you sew clothes for our doll
I miss our games
Our talks about supernatural creature
Or how we imagine or believe that some unknown plant grew in our land are for medical purposes
I miss how we teased your little sister
I miss your smile
I miss dreaming with you
Do you still remember out late night talks beside the lamp post?
I miss that, the night breeze, the sound of vehicles that is passing by and the smell of our neighborhood
But most of all its you that I miss so much
Of all the people that I met in my life
You are the one who always leaves a mark
Your curly hair is amazing
Your wit and wisdom is quite philosophical
You are awesome
Five years ago, you leave me in this world
My dreams died and so do I
You are a part of me
When you leave me,
I just hide in the dark
And when I go out into the light
I wear a fake mask
I was hoping that I can fake my happiness
Or I can hide how miserable I was
I never blame you when you leave me
I blame the world
You never want to leave me, I know
But you can't do nothing
Its death that you are fighting
And you can't win against death
I hate it that when death takes over you
I wasn't with you,
You never say goodbye to me personally
You hate goodbyes as much as I do
Five years ago since you leave
I keep telling people all the memories that we both shared when you are still alive
I tell stories about you, so it would feel like you are still here
I never stop telling stories about you
So oblivion won't scare you
Now you are in a better place
I can't bring back time to cheat on death when he gets into you
Now I am all alone
Trying to build my own dream alone
Trying to build my own life
Trying to cheer up myself
Trying to live again
Trying to love myself
And convicing myself that you are in a better place that soon I will heal
The rest of the world will forget you but I don't
I miss you, Curl