I am usually happy, not sad
I just can't seem to figure out why
I feel as if life has lost its purpose
I feel as if life took away my meaning
—and left me damned for eternity.
I shouldn't be angry,
I shouldn't be mad,
But out of all things,
Why can't I be glad?
I got my friends, I got my family, and I got you,
So why can't my happiness show and be true?
Finally, he came.
He threw me down the stairs
to the bottom of the abyss
You were my ecstasy
and he took you away
Now life's meaningless and grey.
I try to wander in this shallow pit
While the voices in my head try to consume me
They know what I did, yet I never admit
Because I wanted you to save me
I feel my feet hurt as I try to walk
I feel my heart pound as I try to talk
I try to smile, but there ain't no thrill
For what was inside me is no longer there to fill.
Honey, I know you don't want me
And for that, I'll go and leave you be
Because in my life, you're my goal
And I'll do what you want, whatever the toll.