Dating the Gangster

I really read a lot. Maybe the reason why my life turned into one tragic story. And if Taylor Swift writes a song after each of her breakup, this girl right here writes the stories of the every romantic relationship encounter she had.

There was this book. It was the first book I loved. "She's Dating The Gangster". Yes, and if you're a Filipino, you should know the story of Athena and Kenji. And although I know it was pure fiction, I cannot help to compare mine. I am dating a gangster... I guess.

I had one hell of an asshole father. He smokes, drinks, comes home late and more of the things I didn't want my father to be. But who am I to choose, ofcourse. My mom, she works hard. She is our hero. She was unlucky to have a guy she didn't deserve. A guy who would cheat and choose another woman over her. And I was in fifth grade when they separated. Being the only daughter, mom always told me to always choose the good guy. To have to marry the best. To marry a guy away from the characteristics of my father.

And so I did. I liked a good guy. The guy who did well in school, is family-oriented, cuts his hair clean and so on.

Until I met him. The bad boy of my life.

But before we go to him, I just wanna say I am a good girl... Except for the fact that I drink.

I was on one of my sns accounts when his name suddenly appeared. He was my facebook friend long before but it creeped the fuck out of me. 'Why would he message me?' was the only question playing in my head.

"We were classmates right?" His question asked. Yes, he was my classmate.

He transfered to our campus on our last year of highschool. We didn't talk that much but ofcourse gossip-ers never die and so I knew how he was ditched by her former girlfriend for another guy.

He was handsome. He's got those narrow eyes and nose, curved lips and he's so much taller than me. And just like any notorious guys in our school, he doesn't wear his id and has a veryyy light bag. He smokes (cigs and weed), drinks, goes to parties, goes home late and is broken-hearted.

And then there's me. A nobody. My family isn't rich and I don't look good either. I am in the middle of a responsible and irresponsible student. I drink but never got drunk (maybe tipsy but definitely not drunk). I got a curfew I obey sometimes and has two little brothers. I sing at home a lot but never in public. And the hell with good boys, I am liking this bad boy.

And currently, we are dating. Not yet an item, but we see each other out. Although I know I might be just a temporary replacement, I can deal with that. Because this is what love is. Love is about risking. And you do not get to choose who your heart chooses.

To my bad boy, I'd like to think we are Kenji and Athena. But Athena died, and so did Kenji. Athena didn't get the chance to know how Kenji loves her, and he didn't choose her right before she passed away. So can we just be ourselves? Can we make a better gangster-good girl love story than Athena and Kenji? Because I cannot just like you from afar, I cannot breathe.