Dear God

Dear God,

You know that I am a sinner right..?

You know all things I've done....

You know whats running unto my mind...

You saw the depths of my heart..

You saw how much I argue with my Mom..

and think negatively towards my sister....

You hear every curse I say..

You hear all my questions...and profanities..

I am not worth it for your love and everyone know's that..

But God why?

Why you still love me the same..

Why you're still there..even I push you away..

Why you're still drying my tears at night

and comfort me to all my pain..and failed expectations...

Why God WHY?

You should have leave me..I am not worth it..

I dont deserve your mercy...

There are many people out there..

who can do better than me Lord.

But Why me?..I keep on letting you down..

I have many Iniquities and you know it..

But God...you're still holding my hand.

Patiently waiting for me to turn my head over you..

I ask you when will you give up on me..

But each day...you make me feel like..

I am somebody...and that you will never forsake me..

I ask you how many times..will

you carry me...and there at the moment..

You wipe my tears and you answer.."My child..I love you..

and as long as you seek my face..I will be there for you.."

God..the price that I could never pay..

was paid in Calvary..

So instead of trying to repay all things

you've given to me...

I am learning to simply..obey your words..

and to offer my life...as a payment for all your Love..

Dear God...I cant say anything..

all I want to do is to cry..

and serve you until I die..