Dear No One

Have you ever went out with someone, wearing your most comfy clothes, your most comfy pants and slippers & felt comfortable with him from the moment he stepped in the coffee shop until you bid goodbye to each other?

Cause I have only experienced it now.

I actually don't know what falling in love with him means but I want to try it. Without pretences. Without expectations. Without promises. I want to fall for him naturally, without any slightest pressure from my sister because she like him a lot or from my friends because they like him a lot too... I want to try falling for him because I want to.

I want to fall for him not because my mind wants to or my heart says so, i want to fall for him when both my mind and heart agrees to do so. I want to fall for him without my anxiety ruining everything. I want to fall for him when everything about me is in the right place.

I want to try falling in love with him when I am already sure of myself, when giving my vulnerability isn't as scary as it is anymore, when I am already sure, when regardless of the perfect timing, I want to fall in love with him when every moment feels perfect with just his presence. That's how I want to fall.