Hi. There are times that we think we are no one's favorite.
But I'd like to believe that we have been each other's.
You are the only person who showed interest about knowing the names of my cats.
Who made me have a hard time on choosing which among Ed Sheeran's songs is my most favorite because I love all of them.
Who tolerated my crazing cravings when I am being a sweet tooth.
You are the only person whom I told my favorite book.
Whom I told my favorite author.
Whom I allowed to know where I post my works.
Who gave me oddly cute nicknames.
You are the only person who recommended good music.
You are the only person whom I am comfortable to talk about the most uncomfortable thing.
Death.
How does it feels like when a person is dying.
How is it breathing your last breath.
If there is really a life after death.
Reincarnation.
We talked about it like it's just a piece of cake.
We're opposite. Totally.
Like North and South.
Like the positive and the negative.
You are not afraid to die. I am.
You do not worry about the future. I do.
You are not a believer of happy endings. I am.
But somehow, we have one thing in common.
And that is... we both want to escape on that labyrinth of suffering that we are stuck into.
There were days when we tried to find out how to get out of that shitㅡtogether.
However, we lost our ways and parted on finding the fastest way out.
The only way out of the labyrinth of suffering, as John Green said, is to forgive.
And I am hoping that we'd both learn the art of forgiveness.
Not just the people who inflicted pain and scarred our soulsㅡbut most especially, ourselves.
Little by little, I am going to forgive myself.
I hope you do, too.
Every single day.
For the rest of our lives.
Until we getaway on that stupid maze of pain.