A- At thirteen the first sight of depression came into existence in the life of this once pure innocent little girl.
B- Betrayals and broken hearts were wrapped in a gift box by the people she trusted and loved.
C- Cup after cup of coffee each night she drank to keep her awake while contemplating what she had done wrong.
D- Distance from others and distance from oneself seems like the only thing she could do best as if singing a song.
E- Everything seems so dim as if the moon and the stars are slowly covered with thick clouds till there was no trace of light that could be found.
F- For all the things that she had done to the people she loved, she still wasn't enough.
G- Getting all her shit together, she tried her best. Yet her best wasn't the best.
H- How could happiness be faked with one simple smile?
I- "I was born in the wrong place and in the wrong time" she said.
J- Just as she tried opening up you seem to not give a fuck and shut her down, thinking what she said was a lie when she said she wants to be dead.
K- Kind words were what she has received, but no kind words could ever save her from the demons that cuddles her when she sleeps.
L- Loved not once, not twice , but a thousand of times. She gave away her fragile heart only to be played over and over and made her question if she was even worth it to be loved.
M- Maybe she should just stop breathing? There are days when she couldn't even get out of bed. With every breath she felt pain in her chest.
N- No one would miss her too long, no one really cared enough when she's still living.
O- Overthinking is her special talent. Drowning from the dark thoughts in her head.
P- Picking her own casket is the easiest thing she has done.
Q- Questions rushed at night as if it needs a quick answer. But not all questions has an answer.
R- Reminiscing all the good memories she had til she breathe the breath that was her last.
S- Suicide. Such a selfish act but she's done being selfless. She has lost with this battle that she have fought. With every drop of blood from her pale wrist, a note she left on her desk. She wishes you to fight what she could not fought.
T- time has come to an end. Lay me down in a casket that I call bed. I can finally rest. Thanks for all the memories, our memories has been the best.
U- Under the smiling moon and the glittering stars, bury me down ,don't cry during my funeral but cry inside your car.
V- Vast is the life, I hope you cling to the sliver of light that gives you hope. Sorry that I have used the rope.
W- When life brings you down, just look at the moon and know that i'll be watching over you from the clouds above.
X- Xylophone tones with my favourite happy song is what you should play on my funeral and all day long.
Y- Years will pass by, the memory of me will be forgotten.
Z- Zap this is, but this is not goodbye. I just didn't survive. I'm sorry, but I failed this time.