Depression School = ?

My depression is slowing me down.

Not it is only affecting my life, but also my studies.

My fucking studies.

My school, is a government school which means you can only have a grade above 89.

So that means PRESSURE.

And while my depression is slowing me down, my anxiousness helps me figure out that i am stupid.

I AM STUPID.

Everyday i cry. I cry because it is the only way to vent out my feelings.

But, when i get all emotional at school, i keep it in and so nobody knows.

And nobody will know.

I don't want to be like this. I don't want to feel this kind of feeling. I want to be happy. I want to be satisfied.

But why can't i?

Oh, yeah..

My freakin depression.