Diaries of the girl you betrayed.... (Part 1)

Sorry for not wishing you on your birthday. Trust me, i did not forget your birthday. I swear, I will be the last person in this world to ever forget your birthday. I know you have lots of friends and family to wish you on your big day  and you dont need wishes from me at all, yet i am sincerely sorry.

No. Its not that i could not muster enough courage to do this. I honestly was not afraid that your reaction will break my heart this time too. You cannot break what is already in pieces. True, my scars from the last time we talked are still not healed and still afresh in my heart but you know what i am a glutton for punishement. I was mentally prepared for any response from you. After all i had awaited this day for months.

But then you might (or might not) ask why i did not text you a damn "Happy Birthday" message after all?

No. It was not my ego. Had i not shed my ego long ago when i was actually in that shitty relationship with you?

It was self respect firstly that prevented me from leaving you a text. After all that cruelty u had inflicted on me 1 and a half years back, there would hardly be any girl who would have such low of a self-esteem to contact you again. I was blind in your love then; but i am not blind now. My heart doesnt come in the way of my brain anymore.Sorry.

Secondly, it is a very wrong time to reinitiate contact with you again. Your finals are going on and i dont want to mess it up for you in anyway.  .....(to be contd.)