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I hate

How you said you were okay

But your eyes don't say the same

And you stare blankly all day

I hate myself

On how I can't give you your wish

On your special day

All I could do was feel guilty and stay

I hate 

How I just swallowed my plans

And let them fly in the air

All forgotten and unsafe

I felt guilty

How you were really a mother

Who forgets herself

Her happiness

And wraps the joy to her children

I wish

I could've turned back time

To the morning before sunrise

Thinking of better plans

So you'll enjoy your day

And I'll have no regret that will be molded in me like a clay