DIVE DEEP INTO THAT DARK WATER

I can be seen as a blissful and frisky person,
A playful, bizarre specimen, perhaps?
Or a careless and overdramatic individual,
But oftentimes,
I can also be the most heartless and meanest person you'll ever know.
Even if you see this cocky attitude,
I just want you to know that this is just a part of me.
This isn't my whole.

Because deep down in that intimidating façade,
There is a girl who needs help,
There is a girl who cries herself to sleep,
There is a girl who seeks for attention because she can't have any,
There is a girl who prays every night for the betterment of the world and the enlightenment of all people so that they'll never have to do reckless and wicked things again.
There is a girl who cuts her wrist so that she can feel pain physically and not emotionally.
There is a girl who is depressed, and people kept telling her to fight it but you know what? She CAN'T. You may think depression can be fought but in reality, how can you fight if it is already a part of you? How can you fight it if it is inside you? How can you fight it if it is swallowing you whole?
Now, tell me I have it easy.
Tell me that there are more people suffering beaucoup problems than just depression.
Yes, I know some people don't have it easy.
But that doesn't mean I'm not one of them, too.
You may think I'm being overdramatic, but this is me.
This is who I am. You always tell people to "please never change, be who you are" but you don't know the struggle people like me have been through staying who we fucking are.
You can't just randomly tell a person to be okay without knowing the gist of their situation because that's like telling a dog continuously to roll over when they aren't even trained in the first place. It does nothing!

And yet, I'm still here. And I'm still fighting. I've gone through all that and I've made it this far. So to anyone who has ever felt like me, you are not alone. And we'll fight this battle together.