If you want to be free,
cutting your skin isn't as painful anymore as staring blankly at the corner of your room for hours,
because they're never the same.
If you want to be free,
wishing upon shooting stars feels good like the meal you used to eat lavishly,
but you never touch them now.
If you want to be free,
you dream dreams about Wonderland, living happily ever after and not waking up sweaty in the middle of the night,
because you never learned to sleep again afterwards.
If you want to be free,
lying on your bed won't tire your body the whole day that it feels good like never before,
because your pillows are newly washed and you can't smell tears on them.
If you want to be free,
shutting your mind would be as easy as banging the door you used to lean on with your back,
but you close your eyes when you see the paintings move as it closes too.
If you want to be free,
you write stories you imagined when you smell the flowers of the garden where your golden memories reside,
but, then the garden dried out.
If you want to be free,
crying is never an option when you hear words of disgust and hate even 50 meters away,
because you're sensitive.
If you want to be free,
imagine of a lifetime care and eternal understanding that will always stay like the screams in your head that you thought were gone, but they're there.
If you want to be free,
you seek for a love that touches the deepest parts of your soul, surprising you with a feeling you've been missing all your life.
If you want to be free,
never be scared if life gets too good to you,
because Darling, you need it
Darling, you deserve it.
TheP12