My Dreamcatcher no longer catches my dreams,
While I descend in the abyss with my silent screams,
I keep falling and falling and there's no end,
I keep waiting and waiting but I don't have that friend,
Who would pull me out and calm my nerve,
I have been in desperate need of a little bit of verve..
Someone keeps me pushing from a building so tall,
I keep calling his name all the while,while I fall,
I can't see his face but I really want to know,
What I did to him, to make him fall so low..
Today I missed the bus to school,
Hold on, 'not school, it was college you fool!',
I curse myself for such torrid confusion,
When I reach the class it was all an illusion..
My teeth fall out or I am trying to chew stones,
Sometimes I look in the mirror and all I see is bones,
Sometimes I dress but I forget to wear my pants,
Then wander in public amidst their smirks and rants..
Then a snake follows me but I don't feel afraid,
A minute later I am wearing it in my braid..
The wretched Dreamcatcher still hangs on the top,
While I lay asleep on my bed, like a dead log,
I was hoping tonight I would dream of a poppy field,
Or that scars on my heart would be miraculously healed,
But more wretched is my mind for all this chaos,
I get sucked into darkness of pain and of loss,
Few hanging threads cannot take away my storm,
And from the corner of my eyes a tear trickles,so warm..
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