That Drug...

Today I choose to be happy :-) and I won't be influenced any more by what people have been trying to do me intentionally or unintentionally. Now I'll always be in my high spirits ignorant of anything cause I have ceased my head to swim in that negativity and the thoughts of those demon like pretty faced people which were earlier growing like a grapevine, trapping my heart and brain both...

Few months ago I was not as much calm as I am today....there was a flood of thoughts in my mind which no one could even guess of...everyday there was an argument between my brain and heart to which my brain was always convinced and the heart would always win. That was the time when for the first time I felt LOVE....and got to know that ''LOVE  is a DRUG''...I realized that this drug has now got in my nerves to which I got addicted unknowingly. And that addiction was to a cocaine like friend, who entered my life @ just_a_friend & went till ''badly_fell_in_love_with'' to which my brain's response was extremely cold because my brain knew that it was nothing more than flirting from his side and even knowing this all my heart still beated for him cause someone rightly said that ''Love is blind''.... :-(
There was a time when I had my own convict, that love is nothing more than that creepy bullshit-gf/bf melodrama and was damn sure at my side that I could never fall in love. My senses never put me down into this before. I was a strong-hearted soul....But then the situation got totally opposite...I got stuck into this very badly...and that also for a person who just played with my feelings, who was responsible for bringing me into all this...he convinced me with his bullshit and I went on to believing him but who knew that he would just simply leave without giving any reason and I would end up falling in die-hard love with him. This all made me mad, took off my sleep, and sometimes I felt like I am a mentally retarded person who needs to be sent to a mental asylum :/

Love is an illness, where you could stay and feel like heaven but if you make an effort to leave you will realize that you were actually staying in a hell where your brain stopped working ( if the person you loved is not worth it )

Someone rightly said that "The person may die, but true love never dies"

Once you began to have the feeling of love for someone, the true feelings will never vanish...whatever the situation may be or who so ever the person may be.

I still owe the same feelings, the same love for that person...but knowing that the drug is dangerous to me...I choose to kick it out of my life...I know  that deep inside my heart that love will always be alive but now I've learned to let go off things and move ahead. I believe that whatever happens is for a reason. And from now I've decided to act like I am the happiest person on this planet :-) ;-)