... It all started when i ended up living , i never knew my self before , none of us did . but all of sudden we ended up being here with our self completely convinced that we know who we are !
we started living at least we thought we are .
Do you ever stop for a second , lean your head to the side , and look at what ever it is that's in front of you and smile . as if you were looking at your entire life passing in front of you , as if you smiled shit will be fixed just like that .
Did you ever realise that you do nothing but wait ... wait for 7 am to wake up , wait for vacation , wait for your period , wait for your paycheck , wait for the right person , wait for the right moment , and the funny thing is that somehow there is not such thing as the right moment . somehow is just a fucking excuse we give our self to Wait some more ... Here it is i can finally define my self i'm a waiter ! i wait for my self to die , i wait for something interesting to happen .
let me tell you a secret , who ever you are reading this , i'm going to tell you something about my self ; I'm sad , i suck , i'm terrible , i'm good for nothing , i'm dumb , i'm ugly , i'm pathetic for writing this ... but God this feels good , but these things about my self are not a secret , the secret is that there is this one special someone that manages to make me feel everything but bad about my self , someone who gave me a true meaning of what it is to love . who defined the word love to me , someone whom i waited for my entire past 20 years , someone who gave me what none of the books i red , nor the most wise people i have known , something not even god was able to give . This person gave me the truth , this person was brave enough to erase fear from my life , this person was able to touch my soul , literally touched my soul , this person was able to turn every single imperfection i have into the most beautiful thing a person could ever have , this person taught me to love deeply , without fear , without regret , without boundaries , without limits , this person showed me that loving someone is enough to live , and is enough to die .
This person proved to me that forevers do exist .
SEE THE ENDS ALWAYS SUCKS , SOMEHOW MY LIFE STARTED WITH AN END ! AND SOMEHOW I MET YOU AND I STARTED LIVING .