Engulf my shadows

Today the sun isn't rising
As the darkness of a pit bottom
I surrender to despair
And myself is so lost
in turmoil
Beyond sadness
beyond grief
Raw and cruel,madly irrevocably and deep are those feelings of mine
A life started wrong and gone for worse
Paper's thin patience
Still stuck on the cliff half dangling off wore on me
every second  gets harder and tougher
‎and the longing for peace painfully thrive sending me signals that maybe after death  would be our first date
‎until then I'll wait
‎                     the left of me