Unfortunately today I was pushed into the harsh reality that I'm stuck into. For the past year I've lived like someone really cared but in matter of fact no one does. I'm easily replaceable, forgetable and disposable.
The person that I though that was going to be there again, got someone else to be friend with because she/he was sick of me.
I'm sick of myself too, so I don't blame you all. I'm so alone, and everyday I've been crying myself to sleep because I can't really take this.
I made the hardest decision in my life and I'm going to pursue sticking to the plan. I don't really know what the plan is but all I want is to make this pain go away.
I'm not the person that you might want to be around with i'm not funny, handsome, or any other quality you might think of, but I do know that I' broken and if someone let this pain go away I might reveal myself as a better human being.
I was getting better and now I'm at my worse. I don't know if I'm even make any sense because my head is in a mess right know and I don't know to express.
I don't have anyone left to talk to because they wouldn't get it. I'm lost and alone. I'm as scared as never.