Today I'm writing about the fact that I' sick of beeing replaced over and over again. I've been losing the ones I thought I'll never loose because they were always there for me.
I don't blame any of them for leaving me since I'm the worst person alive, but don't give me hope, don't pretend for a whole year that you really enjoy my friendship and then, when we are together again you are embarassed of me and you do all the things we used to do with someone else. Even though you still my best friend, and I hope you realise you are hurting me so badly bcause I never did something wrong to you and now you left.
I've been crying myself out every night and wen I'm ate school all I want to do is to cry. I'm sad, and depressed and these suicidal thoughts never seemed so accurate as thei seem now.
Everything is messed up. I lost my best friend and lots of other important friends because they got sick of me, they could't stand my presence, my parents love me but still, if they could change something, they would change a lot about me and so on.
I need peace as quick as possible.
I need everything I had during the 10th year that now I miss. I want to be as happy as I was during that time and I'm so angry that I can't have that friend, anda those moments again. I want my best friends back.