Everytime I Break

Everytime I break
My smiles will always be fake
My laughs would always be forced
My mind will be suddenly closed

Because when it hurts
I would just grab a piece of paper
Would stare, would wonder
How could this broken pieces last forever

I would write my own fairy tale
Defy my reality
And own you fictionaly
Hoping at something irrationally

I would definitely make you fall
Through this words I'll make a wall
Filling the one you left, that hole
I'm trying to bring it back whole

By this pen and paper
I'll erase my ending
I'll escape my tears
I'll make a lie

By this I would heal
By this you'd be mine
By this I'll hope
By this I'd hurt myself furthermore

But what could I do?
This is all I can do when I'm in blue
When it aches thinking of you
Everytime I break