I am not 100% sure how to phrase my thoughts.
I never have been.
I have been scared.
I am scared.
I am scared.
I am scared.
Happiness is occasional, lightening bolts, movement.
Cry.
I am scared.
Happiness is there sometimes, suddenly, happy.
Around certain people. Happiness. Tangible. Real.
I am real.
But scared.
I am scared.
I am scared.
I don't know how to not be scared.
Cry.
Scared.
Please.
Scared.
Stop.
Please.
Happy.
Gone.
I'm trying.
I promise.