It was sunny.
Let's just start there for now.
Describing the setting.
It was sunny.
The room was large, round.
I spent time there on the rainy days.
But today it was sunny.
In the corner, there was the door.
A smaller room.
A private bedroom.
Private.
That room was dark.
Or maybe I have simply made it dark in my memory.
Even describing the setting is hard.
I guess that's why I don't tell people.
The memories are rough, pushed to the back of my mind, dark, stingy.
Frightening.
It's not as if I said no.
I guess I didn't really understand.
And I guess that's why, even after remembering, I was too scared to really call it was it was.
Because I didn't say no.
I was too young to say no.
But I sure as hell didn't say yes.
Last year, I learned an important lesson.
Through the teachings of Laci Green, YouTube star, I learned that the absence of a no does not mean it is a yes.
And I need to say thank you.
Because without that lesson.
God knows where I would be.