Fading Attraction

I always have this kind of attitude that whenever I confess my attraction to my crush, my feelings always start to fade away. It's like a disease keeps running in my blood, I always love the chase but when I got tired I always try to take another track as if I never ran after someone. 

I'll say the most sweetest word but right after that I'll never say it again. 

I hate it but a part of me love it. As they say, I always love the chase never the destination. 

As I realize, I unconsciously do not want to be hurt that's why I always keep running away.

I ran away, he took away my heart.

I'm hurt, I hurt.

Cycle of pain, agony in brain.

I'm scared, I'm scarred.