Light on my face
I woke up again
Such a warm, sunny day
But I shivered to great extent
Once again I curved my mouth
Raising my lips and smiled
But all there was was pain
And the dullness of my eyes.
Breathing deeply I often did
'Cause somehow it helped
Hiding the pain was never easy
But what else is there?
I had my hopes up
Many times, actually
It never ended good
Every time its on the high
I never intended to love
And hurt myself with pain
But you just came in the picture
And I was never the same again
If love truly makes one happy
Then why's my heart in wreck?
Is it because you'll never be mine?
Or that I keep thinking that you might?
I'm tired from all of this
My living in false hopes and all
So I willed my heart to stop
And let my brain take hold
I squeezed my eyes shut
As tears fell down my face
In my dreams we may be
But here on out I'll stop the pace.