Fallen

Light on my face

I woke up again

Such a warm, sunny day

But I shivered to great extent

Once again I curved my mouth

Raising my lips and smiled

But all there was was  pain

And the dullness of my eyes.

Breathing deeply I often did

'Cause somehow it helped

Hiding the pain was never easy

But what else is there?

I had my hopes up

Many times, actually

It never ended good

Every time its on the high

I never intended to love

And hurt myself with pain

But you just came in the picture

And I was never the same again

If love truly makes one happy

Then why's my heart in wreck?

Is it because you'll never be mine?

Or that I keep thinking that you might?

I'm tired from all of this

My living in false hopes and all

So I willed my heart to stop

And let my brain take hold

I squeezed my eyes shut

As tears fell down my face

In my dreams we may be

But here on out I'll stop the pace.