I cannot remember how, when, or even precisely where I first became acquainted and fell in love with you. Yet I believe that I met you first in some library along with your friends. the moment l laid my eyes on you, I knew you were the one. For others you were not as better looking as you friends; but for me you were perfect and nothing else matters.
This one topic, on which my memory fails me not, when I approached you and begin to talk with you. Most of what I remember of our conversation made sure that I shouldn’t let you walk away from me. Though I didn’t pay attention to what you were saying, I mused, with wide eyes, at you face for a long time. The expression of your eyes when you smile! How for long hours have I pondered upon it! How have I struggled to fathom it. In a life so composed of lies and two faces, you were nothing but an angel walking among us. I was possessed with a passion to discover you more and more. You took all my words when all I wanted to do was say them. For me, you were a drop of perfect in an imperfect world.
You changed me and this is partly why I fell in love with you; you know something about me I didn’t know. you knows what I’m like inside. you have always known the exact time where I need you the most without asking you. You showed me how beautiful I am from the inside. You make mirrors of your eyes to let me see myself. You transformed me.
But now I know you are not happy with me on the day I watched you go away from me. And all the things I wished I had not said are now playing in loops in my head. And I always wonder is it too late to remind how we were, but not our last days of silence and screaming.
I want to say to you many years ago that you made me happier than I’d been by far. And somehow everything I own smells of you and I can’t stop thinking about you and for the tiniest moments it’s all not true. But I hope that you do the thing you have always wanted to without me to hold you back again. More than anything I want to see you my beloved happy in your life forever after without me….
She folded the letter with tears drowning all over her face. She took a breath and read it again and again. After 10 minutes of silence she grabbed her phone and called her friend
“can I meet you please like right now?” she asks
“Anytime sure my friend” he told her
She read the letter in front of him and then he asks.
“do you love him? “
“Yes” she nod
“So love him”
“But I miss him” she said
“so miss him. Send him some love every time you think about him, then drop it. You are just afraid to let go of the last bits of him because you’ll be really alone, and you won’t enter another relationship with anyone again. I know you trusted him and changed you from the nothingness to now. But let me tell you one thing. If you clear out all the space in your mind that you are using it right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a void, an open spot and it will be rushed. God will rush in and fill you with love that is more than love than you ever dreamed of. So stop using him to clear this space. LET GO.”
“ but I wish me and him..”
That’s the problem my friend, you are wishing too much and if it’s still in your mind then you still love him and you won’t move on like this. You have everything to change your life now from good to better. It gave you strength to choose wisely next time. And everything happens for reason no matter how bad it seems. A time will come when all these hopeless days will be filled with joy and happiness. You are on your way to better days. Have faith and you will find a way.