Before I start writing I want to mention that I am from Kolkata and Abhishek is from Jamshedpur. We met in college and become life of each other.
I will not say that what I am going to write is a story, its my feelings which I was not able to keep it inside. So I decided to write it .
I don't know when it happened,how it happened but it just happened.
YOU have become my life. In past three years there wasn't a day which you were not a part of. My day begun to start with you and end with you.
Its your thought that wakes me awake and send me sleep. Its not that we made a rule that has to be followed everyday. Its something which is not in our control. It is controlled by our hearts.
I never ask you to wish me morning and night but you always do . I never ask you to call me and ask whether I have eaten or not. I never ask you to be my side when I need someone to be. We don't have to explain these feelings to each other, its something that doesn't need to be explained.
I was broken so many times, stabbed by my close friends but you never blamed me for all those like others did. You always stand by my side and support me and strengthen me to rise again. Its because of you I feel strong and I overcome everything that weakened me.
You always put me as your first priority and never failed to treat me like that. I always feel special with you whether it was our first meeting or its today's meeting.
Our college life is going to end in two months. With this passing time I am feeling little bit nervous. Nervous not that you will cheat me !!! Because you know na.. " bal bache wale ho gae ho ab." I use to tease him with this.
I am nervous because I don't know how we will manage all the upcoming emotions. When anything good happens we meet and celebrate together, when something bad happens we see each other and gain strength,when we are angry we meet and solve our problems. I like when I cry at night and the next morning I find you outside my hostel to have tea with me. Every problem we solve together. We can't control ourselves for more than two days of seeing each other, we go mad .
We need no one to be present with us, whatever we are we are everything for each other. We laugh aloud with no reason. Our fights are not like other couples. We fight because we think for each others happiness, and when we clear our fights we laugh because we were fighting for each other. We never had a fight for any selfish topic!
And now the thought that we have to be separated after two months is killing me inside. I know that this separation would not last long but even that much of separation is not bearable. I want to be calm because I know everything will be fine but again the same fear comes in my mind. I want to share it with you but I can't because I don't want to feel you week and upset. With your smile I will pass this time also.
I will miss your "bacha uth gaya na?" , "khana kha li babu", "qa kr rhi ho ?", "sham ko mai aa jau ?", "tum thik ho na?", "raat ko jaldi so jana bacha", "goodnight bacha"... everything of my day is related with you. I can't start my day without you. Whenever he asks me " how will you manage all this babu?" I answer him "I know, you will always be there.. I don't have to worry! " and we both laugh at this.
I wish the time after these two months, pass fastest! I want to be by your side again as now. I will miss you more than anything. The fear of being separated for even a short period of time is making me mad. I wish God please give us strength to pass those time patiently.