It was not that i never noticed you before, but today it was something different. Something which dragged my heart towards your. I always saw you roaming here and there in the college campus. Your first impression to me was like " yaar ye larka v na.. kitna bindaas rhta h.. seems he hd nthng to wrry about.. " .
It started when I was waiting for my friends in the college's corridor. I saw that you were playing basketball, and that also alone. I was watching your game.
(from here i would like to write in my language, hindi. because i don't want to miss ny of my feelings :) )
Mai tumhra match dekh rahi thi. Usdin bahut tej tufaan tha aur tm khele jaa rae the jaise ek jidd ho ki bas khelna hai. Mjhe ye chij bahut achi lagi ki aap apne jid ko pura kr rae ho, chahe kuch v ho. Tmhari ye jid mjhe pasand aane lagi. maine usdin akele ek ghanta tk tmko khelte dekha. mann kr ra tha bas dekhte rhu..
And from then I started noticing you but now in another way. with some other feelings! You still roam in the same way as you used to do but it was like I had first saw you. From then everyday I started looking for you in the whole campus to see you once.
I am Shraddha Singh a simple girl and i never wanted to be noticed by anyone. I used to hide myself . Let me describe him too. His name is Abhishek kumar. He is fun loving, caring and adorable gentleman. Gentleman because he knows how to respect a girl. His smile can give life to any dead person. No words to describe his inner beauty, he is pure.
Now coming back to the story I wanted him to know my feelings. I don't want that whatever I felt for him is not known to him. I decided to say everything I felt for him. I started searching different ways to talk to him,but I failed. I was very shy.
I found his number, and decided to say him everything . I messaged him but hiding my identity. I named myself Komal Singh. We started messaging but he showed no interest in that. He said that I should say him my original name! But how could I yaar.. i was so shy..
In the meanwhile it was great fun. I would like to share that also. He and his friends started searching for the girl named komal!.. in library,in classes, everywhere. I was enjoying that moment.
13-08-2012: then one day i was in a bank , 'union bank' and one of my friend called him and told him everything about me and called him there to meet me. I was not aware of him. I was sitting there and suddenly i saw him coming. I almost fainted there. he came and sat beside me and asked " bolo.. kuch bolna h tumko! ".. and I was like.."oh god! shraddha tu toh gyi.. bahut sher bnti h na ab sher ban...! " My voice chocked ...my heart beat started beating faster.. i was nt able to speak.. he again asked me. Now I thought, i shouldn't miss this chance.. i told him " the girl komal is no one else.. its me.." . there was silence..
Humne ek dusre ko kuch v ni bola and waha se nikal gae. phr hmlg colg me mile. maine use bulaya and sb clearly btaya..usne mujhse time manga.. i said ok.. bt inside i was like yr ye pakka mana kr dega.. qa hga qa ni.. i was so confused..
at evening it was raining. it was like rain of love. I enjoyed that rain so much it seemed it was first rain of my life. first time he was so close to me,i talked with him directly...
sham ko he messaged me.. "which answer would u like to know first.. like or love..!!".. i said i ll give u time..bt rght nw plz answr do u like me.. and he said "yes i do.. and i want to know u more ".. oh god..he said yes yes yes.. i started flying in the sky!!
He gave me time to be myself and say everything i wanted. First time i was not shy in-front of him. I was me. I didn't hide anything about myself..
14-08-2012 : a message was received... it was his message.. saying me yes he had also feelings fr me .. he had also started falling in love with me.... and I called him a gentleman because he not only said yes to me but proposed fr marriage. according to him he don't want to be called his girlfriend by his friends. He believes in long term relationship.
I am still in a relationship with him. He accepted me with all my odds . Never complained about being myself rather he respected me. I never ever have regretted about my decision.
And I think if I would have not opened my heart and expressed my feelings to him I would have missed him. I thank to God for gifting him. Very lucky to have him as my soul mate.
Each time I saw him is always like my first meeting and each time I fall in love with him more than last time.