I still remember the day, after finishing school, when we were about to kiss for the first time, you were tensed and so was I. You showed me how your hands were shivering, but I just hid my anxiety and held your hands in mine, they were all sweaty. I looked at you, in your eyes and all of your nervousness turned into a broad smile. Man, that was the time I knew you were the one for me. You looked like an angel, my angel. After that I did not see a thing because my eyes were closed and my lips were locked by yours. If someone asks me whether I flew, I would proudly say 'Yes'.
No matter how hard we try to forget, few things are meant to be remembered. Oh yeah, we broke up. It has been five years and I still think she is the one for me. She made me a liar, for five years I lied to my heart, my brain and to my friends that I don't love her anymore. Because to keep me out of the misery she left me in. I couldn't bear the idea of her not being with me anymore. I still see her in my dreams, walking with me, talking with me, smiling, kissing me. Damn! I miss her.
Rolled back tears inked the words and drafted many unsent messages in my outbox. Swiping down the old conversations, smiling like an idiot and crying like a baby, yeah, I have been there too. She was my girl, my only girl, my one true love. But she isn't anymore, I need to digest that. I need to move on. But I wanted to be with her, that yearning was killing me from inside. I had to go far away from her, I tried, I walked and walked and kept on walking. But, I never felt the tiredness in my legs. Her memories gave the fuel to my agony.
And then when I lost all my hope of her returning to me, a message popped on my screen. It was from her, she remembered me. I could have lighted up a whole city, I was that happy. We had a nice talk, nothing has changed between us. Then she asked, "Why do you still love me so much?" I had the answer ready. "The day I proposed my love to you I made a vow to myself, 'No matter what, I would never stop loving you'. I may not have thought about you everyday but I haven't forgotten you. Love, for me, on you, is everlasting. It never decays neither it ends. It grew in me, kept me strong, gave me hope. It is also Love that, after all these years, brought you to me. If I had given up on you there would have been no love left in this world to bring you back. Love doesn't need a reason, it gives the answers. Answers to many unasked questions between two hearts." But all I could manage was "I don't know".
No, we weren't back together. She texted me to get to know my well-being. Deep down, I know, she knows, she loves me. I know it is a bad idea to talk with your ex. But, how could one resist the temptation of getting her back in their life? I am also one of those guys who have fallen for this strange sorcery. She may not want me but she is forever and ever mine.