I have always believed that friendships can cause emotional damage then romantic and relationships.
My story begins from no where but most probably starts when I had discovered how painfully it is to be cheated by a friend, who once meant for you everything, and then I had realized that the most people I cared about were the first ones who caused me pain, then it became for me a matter of trust, I became no longer have the ability to trust anyone, so I've become unfair with other innocent people, now I automatically ignore people who care about me, hurt them and it hurts me in return but I don't know what to do, I want to say sorry but my ego stops me, I want a hug from one of them but I keep not trusting them, I know that I can't let some selfish people who I met in the past to affect my relation to people who I meet in present, but I can't help it, and it's so painful to have two voices in my head, one voice telling me to never trust anyone and all the people are the same, on the other hand I have that voice that tells me to run away to those new people that they will be better.
For me I don't know what to do.... all I know that right now I'm emotionally disturbed.