Launchorasince 2014
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Getting Out


If there was a chance to love

and a chance to be loved 

but there was also a chance for you to die

which would you take?


If you take the first pill,

there would be a chance

that you are never loved back

and suffering from a broken heart 

you would be left to die.


If you take the cure,

what good would it be 

if you can't love back? people 

always want what they can't have

but once they have it

they leave it there to die.


If you take the knife,

its just the easy way out.


A black party with blue people

whisper in their sleep

what have you done?

why did you leave us here?

can't you see how selfish it was?


Eternal curses haunt me in my sleep

of those who in the first place

 made me want to die.


that's the thing about people,

 they are judging you in your sleep.

 That's what keeps them alive

 and happy. 


Not all of them can afford

 thinking the best about others

 because if they do,

then they are the ones falling,

sinking into a hole

 where you can't easily crawl back. 


But then again if you keep falling

 into eternal darkness,

 who says you'll survive the fall?

that you'll crash at all? 


Truth be told, 

you can always 

dig deeper,

 until one day 

you'll get up

and decide that you want

to see the sun again,

 hear the birds sing and see the stars shine.


 Can you make it?

its been so long, 

climbing is not the easy way out, 

maybe if i keep digging deeper, 

I'll eventually end up somewhere, right? 

maybe not. 


But i'm so tired, 

I just want to sleep for a while, 

how can i sleep without falling again? 

how can i do anything without falling again? 

i don't want to go back, 

it's so scary down there. 


I hate it, 

I hate myself because i created it, 

I hate him because he helped me, 

I hate her because she encouraged it, 

I hate all of them for not helping me get back up. 


Its really simple right? 

you just help a person if you see them fall

 or at least call for help... 

They probably thought there was no way

 i'd survive the fall, 

maybe i'll prove them wrong, 

no wait!

 I will prove them wrong,

but is there still much to climb?

 my body hurts, 

I can't keep climbing, but I have to.


I think i see the sun,

this gives me hopes,

it encourages me to keep on going

at last i see the sun

 crawling i get out

and lay down

and let out a final effortless breath.