Too soon she was pushed out of her cocoon . Its a bad world out there they said. Walk. Learn. Life is all but a war, they said. You have to fight to survive. And all along nobody warned her of the world within, the constant wars that raged within. She fought, she pushed, did everything people asked her to....but to what effect!!!! Each battle out there withered one bit of her, one bit that she cherished and liked about herself. Self destruction is all it was.
She dreamt of the child within her, trampled by the tides of life as we know it. The beautiful mornings that meant something to her, the rains that touched her soul and not just the skin, the winds that made her heart flutter and the mindless chatter which made her feel alive. Her own little paradise was now a desert. The days gone by bleak reminders of happiness, alluring yet unreal like a mirage. Was it all ever real?! Did flowers ever actually blossom on what now stands dead and alone... and yet to strive for what she was told was right was all she did. After all how can the people she loved and obeyed ever be wrong. Disobedience was a sin for her.
She begged and begged for a way out.... this wasn't the world meant for her. The life she envisioned was happy, where pain was all but a thing of past, where her life called out to her and she had the choice of embracing it, arms outstretched with a childlike smile playing on the lips. On the list of all the things she knew she could never have again, this one ranked her list. " Life is hard...you should know it by now", was all she ever heard. So she did what she was trained to do best. Sacrifice. Bear. Move on. So she did.
Now with all these years gone by, she lay, awaiting the sweetness of death which she knew would bring her solace. People talked and whispered of the end, how it was imminent and so near. She smiled and turned away. Death was a thing of the past. Dead was all she had been all these years.
And now was the beginning...........