Good friends

It was quite some time I saw my girl-friend for last time and Im really glad Im on the train, on my way to the place we knew so much. What is my plan, though? I guess I will visit my high school best friends and decide if I should tell her the truth. After all those year she will know about my love for her. 

As the train stops in its final destination, I pick up all my stuff and make my way to the doors. I walk out of the trainstation and I see my 195cm tall friend waving at me as if I couldn't see him before that. I smile and wave back. He generously walks towards me to hug me and to help me with my luggage.

"Nice to see you, after all those years. Even if it is weird under those conditions."

"Yeah, there is no way this couldn't be weird. After all, it's not THAT late after the graduation."

On our way to his house we spoke a lot in his car, about our life after the school and our carriers. He had it easy, his father had a car repair shop. I, however, had to study 5 long years on university to be just a bit closer to my parents' greatness. We also called Jimmy and Frank to join us for dinner, they both accepted.

Evening came faster than expected and we still had our hands dirty from cooking when we heared the ring of the bell. Since it was his house, I told Peter to go open them.

"Meet us in the living room!" He said while leaving

"Soon, for sure!" I replied.

I finnished slicing the vegetables for the salad and went to see my friends.

"Oh hello, you bastards!" I yelled jokingly at them.

"You always know how to warm my heart, you naive idiot." Frank repplied.

"Nice to see you, too." Said Jimmy.

"Yeah, I was away for quite some time, damnit." I said when as we all hugged. "Sorry for the jokes, I know it's not fitting for these days."

"It's okay, we all know, you have always been the joker in our group. But today is not for making jokes, we all know that."

After few minutes the dinner was ready and we spent the rest of the night eating and chatting about the good old days. Even though I had friends on college, I realised how lonely I was without my friends.

I dont want to leave this place. Yet, I cannot stay here.

After few hours and some drinks, only Jimmy and I were awake and before we went to bed, I had to ask semething important.

"The ceremony starts tommorow at 9AM, right?" I asked.

"Yes, it does." Said Jimmy "Have you decided if you want to tell her?"

"I don't know. I think I should. But I won't see her before the ceremony. And she can't reply in the white dress."

"I think you should tell her. Even if she can't reply. She deserves to know. And you will most likely hate yourself for the rest of your life if you don't tell her,"

"I guess you are right. You always were. Goodnight"

" 'Night"

In the morning, I got up earlier and decided to walk arround the town. I was afraid I would get lost, but everything was just like when I moved out of town. I made my way to a bench in the park. I took a seat.

I watched the empty park.

So beautiful. So peaceful.

I though about what could be if I decide to stay. Not much would change, I guess. We will never know. It was time for me to leave.

I went to the church and met my friends. They encouraged me once more to confess my love and I thanked them. The ceremony started and I was ordering my words for the speech. It was my turn. I went in the front and then I froze. I saw her.

So Beautiful. So peaceful. 

I watched her cold lips. I leaned in and kissed her. I wasn't able to say a word.

I though about what could have been if I decided to stay. Not much would change, I guess. We will never know. It was time for me to leave.

"I love you..

...

..loved you."

The church watched me all the time  but I didn't care. I lost my love. I will never be the same. Will I ever fall in love again?

I don't want to leave this place. Yet, I cannot stay here. 

I looked at my friends and they all nodded as they would be saying: "Good job, you did it!" But we all knew that it was our goodbye. I walked straight out of the church and never looked back.

And never came back.