Have you ever lost your favourite person in the entire universe? Because if you did then you can understand me.
Growing up means getting heartbreaks from losing people who meant the world to you,letting go of the people who were the very definition of home to you? It Hurts like hell.
When that person dies? This is what happens.. You know that they are no more but you do not want to believe that. You want to cry but you do not even know how to respond! Like...
I'm not really sure what compelled me to write this or why I'm even writing this because basically this is insane and dumb but I don't know maybe you'll get this via some waves or floating matter thingy present in the afterlife world?
I miss you grandpa and life sucks without you.
The fact that you are no more is simple truth but a part of me would always hope to see you again the moment the car enters your driveway back home.
Diwali will never be the same without you. We are supposed to be in mourning and stay gloomy and sad which is pretty ironical due to the fact that I grew up watching you decorate the house, lighting the candles and doing your daily routine of pooja.
Even though we made it home for like 3 times in a year? Home will always be your house in Dehra.
I see you by the mango tree in the backyard, I see you watering the pencil flowers by the huge ass lichi tree which has my swing on one of its branch
I see you tidying the house with your OCD, I still see you making bad puns to make me laugh and buying a ton of mushrooms whenever I came to meet you up.
I can still play how it felt to hold your pinky and crossing the road. I still remember how happy you got when I told you about my award.
I wait to hear your voice to come after grandma's on the phone. The voice which has scolded me, coaxed me when I cried and comforted me after mum got mad over me
I cannot ever accept that I won't meet again with you, that the person who used to be the first to call to wish me on my birthday will never call me again.
I.. I will always be your dumbo, the girl who was fit to be you Grandson, the girl who was your everything and I'll always stay strong and be your fighter.