The walking dead

Just a random day spent scrolling aimlessly through the addicting feed of my Instagram and I come across an award accepting speech by Taylor Swift of all people. And as funny  and stupid as it sounds? I couldn't have related any more to someone's words than I did at that moment.

"I'm excited for the next chapter of  my  life "

Ever since I was a kid, I wrote as soon as anything happened in my life, no matter how I significant it might have been. Writing for me was never a hobby or an interest but instead a sort of addiction which calmed me down and still calm me down.

I was facing a writing block recently where I found myself unable to pen down my thoughts and thought that perhaps I was just being unproductive with my time. But later, it dawned upon me that I stopped writing because I did not want to act as if  I was completely oblivious to the fact that my life had been completely changed. I write  to be true to my own self and hence I did not write till I believed in it myself.

We all live in a hypocrite world where we seldom practice what we preach  and I am no stranger to that ideology. We try to act as if we have our shit together and we smile because good God, if somebody realised that we were utterly and completely mindfucked, the picture perfect illusion would shatter. So we act while we're dead inside while every single thing triggers us one step closer to the grand, sob heaving, body wrenching ultimate breakdown.

Too much in my life has changed, and I know it's for the good. But with change comes the feeling of not being in control. That's what scares me and to be honest everybody who exists.

I may struggle everyday but I know that I'm going to overcome those obstacles one day at a time. Till then I'm going to learn how to accept everything and breathe.

I suggest you try to do that sometime too.