I have been feeling like crap for too long now, and I'm really thinking about something that could take my pain away. I can't stand this for much longer. I do acknowledge that there are people that care about me and would be pretty sad if i left but i don't know what else to do. When I'm around my friends I feel like I'll never be as a good person for them as they are for me.
Everything that once brought me down, is now gone, but, unfortunately, I've realised that I've always been the problem and those so treated me in such a bad way, were just giving me what i deserved. I'm a complete failure, A waste of space, time and money. I just bother anyone that's around me, with my problems when they need to take care of their own problems. I wish I could help someone, I wish I had some value to someone. I wish I was that friend that you'll always rely on. But I'm not. I'm just a body full of bad this.
I'm sorry to those who care about me. I promise I'm doing everything I can to stay in a good place but now that the demons are inside me I really don´t know what to do. Writing helps me a bit because I feel like this words that I'm putting together, won´t judge or won't have other problems besides me.
I love my friends ans I'm doing everything to stay here, just for you.