Happenings

I had expected long ago that this day would come out as a beautiful one, away from all miseries and sadness, there will be absolute happiness. I really feel very blessed to have lived a day with my soulmate.

But who knew God was smiling from the back???

It was after all my ex's birthday. I remember we had been celebrating this day a year ago with the extreme forms of happiness and good luck that God could ever pour on me. For the first time in my life, I had found someone of my own... All these dreams crushed down on one such stormy evenings. I had seen and felt him dancing with someone else as if nothing else mattered to him expect that of her. I was shocked, I was heartbroken but I was happy that he was happy. How could anyone be there to tolerate such an unlucky girl??? He had not been able to recognize the tears that once he promised to wipe off even without me saying anything. How more lucky could one be???

Today everything was going on well. I had seen his face today ( though maybe in the photo!!!) but seeing his eyes sparkling it made me happy and I could even smile. But the tragedy remains. I can't even wish him to hear a small ' thank you' that could wipe off my tears. Okk, promises are made to be broken... Knowing all these, I miss him from the deepest core of my heart...

I was suffering from various problems throughout the day. Very few knew about it, very few understood about it. I did not have the courage to sleep even. Because that could bring an end to my life with my soulmate. However, in the last attempt of my breathing, I had fallen into the hands of sleep. It had handelled everything very well to put me into the lowest position of the world. Just as once I had dreamt of losing my ex into the hands of someone else, I saw the devastating dream of losing my mate to the hands of luck...

"I hate dreams", I said to myself as I woke up. But deep down I am still not ready to lose a fight that had lasted for years... It's mine and I will prove my worth till I last... unlike the last Time  Warner...