Hear me out

You were there standing still with your fragile looking body as you look at the other kids playing around and doing things you weren't allowed to do,  and there was I, drawn to you.

How many years has it been since then?  You don't know because I didn't tell you. You captured my interest with your pitiful situation, call me twisted but I can't help loving the broken ones. Or so I thought.

I teased a girl to you,  making nicknames for the both of you. Her reaction was amusing but you were so indifferent. That was my first step to get closer to you, and it was followed with name callings between us. I was contended with how things are but then you told me that you like an unknown girl,  what else could have I done but help you. It dawned on me that I have long fallen for you,  but I was oblivious then.

We started walking home together,  I took that chance to tell you what I wanted to tell you for so long. It wasn't easy at all with all the cold sweats and trembling, nevertheless I told you that I have a crush on you. But then you just laughed it off, you didn't believe me because I am boyish and you saw my misanthrope nature. I was hurt for i truly liked you, the first human I romantically liked.

Nothing changed afterwards, and I was looking forward to the day when I'll forget my feelings for you. That wasn't possible after all I have to meet you 6 days a week, but I noticed how on guard you are with me. Years passed once again and you were kind enough to agree in helping me study Calculus, I passed thanks to you.

I know that for the past years you've been trying to be a gentleman to me but I always turned down your offers to help me and in sending me home. I was so happy that I wanted to agree to anything you offered,  but I didn't want to be a Damsel in Distress. So for the last time hear me out. It wasn't a joke when I told you that I have a crush on you 3 years ago, I like you for 7 years now. Sorry I can't wait for you to answer me after 2 years, I am not asking for a relationship. I am sorry for being selfish but I wanted you to be bothered about me so I am drawing a fine line between us.

I know that you like her,  you might not tell me but I feel it. Even so I don't regret loving you for who you are from this distance, thank you.