Hello, Kid. So I've probably lost all the letters that I've wrote to you in the past four years or so. I'm sorry, I just need to tell you this tonight. I know you're not even here, you're just a far reality I'll have the pleasure to meet one day. But, like I always have told you, you're somewhere in my heart waiting for your moment to happen. You're somewhere in the clouds reminding me that this struggle, this everyday fight is not about me... It's about you and about all the people that my history will inspire one day. Tonight, I got caught up with a thought. A thought that's coming from my last experiences. I won't tell you my whole story right now. We'll have plenty of time for that later. Tonight I want to talk to you about your life. I know that I'll be the kind of person who will talk to you about your life and your future a lot, just like my father. I will remind you that you were born one day to be extraordinary. I will tell you everyday about how great your life is gonna be, even when you dont see it yourself. I'll be the first person to believe in every single dream that you've got, even before you start believing yourself. So, tonight I want to talk to you about that -again-. I think in most of my lost letters you would've find out that all I want for you is to be happy but thats not it. I want you to have this life I'm dreaming about right now as I write this letter. I want you to have the life I see myself having while I'm sitting here with my computer in the middle of a cold room, somewhere in Ecuador. I want you to never stop believing you'll do great things. Do you know why I want you to know this? Because right now I have to remind myself the same thing. I have to remind myself that I have to trust myself and fight hard to get to where I wanna be. I have to remind myself that one day this whole thing will make perfect sense. One day I'll be far away from this place with some new dreams and great things to accomplish. And for now, all I have to do is remind myself to think about you and think about all the things that will change because I was once alive. So you, my little one, please remind yourself that when you're scared or confused, I'm right here and I went through your same struggle one day. I was scared and terrified. I had no idea how I was gonna get there but somehow I did got there and I had the chance to live the life that I want for both of us. I know that one day you will be terrified as well. I'm telling you, don't give up. When I was a child every time my father had to struggle to find his way, every time he had to start all over again I used to tell him that everything was gonna be o.k. I was so sure that whatever happen to us, we would always have each other. I would always have my brother to piss me off and my daddy to push us through. I'm fighting really hard to remember how sure that little girl was about her future... So fight back, little one. You have absolutely no idea of what God's doing behind the scenes. Fight for your dreams and live a wild and crazy life filled with purpose and love.
Thank you so much for being my inspiration every time I need it. You are just a thought in my mind and you're already awesome. I love you, kid. I love you, doughter or son. I love you to the moon and back.