Here's a thing.

Okay so here's a thing
Aaftab,
It's not that I don't like you l, but I like you as a person. You are funny, grand and at the same time a smile. Things are changing in a way that I have never thought of. I never imagined myself dating a guy and going on long walks, keeping my head over someone else's shoulder, holding sweaty hands or getting a peck on my left cheek.
I know I am too fussy about sweat, hugs and hands but this is me.
It never ever bothers me clothes and looks stuff. I am what I show.
It's really very difficult for me to not to remember you at times. Means at one time in every single day I scold myself and says "Shut the fuck up and think about something else. "
Earlier I used to think how do people kiss each other? You get your tongue inside other's mouth and other's in yours and like Chanchad I always wonder what if the nose comes in between and if you haven't noticed, I have a big one.
But these small things looked like fun thinking but now they are quite scary.
Tomorrow maybe we will be going for a movie, what if the situation demanded a kiss.
It's not being that long but I am not ready for that stuff.
It requires a whole lot of trust which is too much and takes long time to be built.
It's okay to be confused because it's my first time. Yep, I am going through my firsts and this seems like a adventurous ride.
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