How do I Unlove ?

"Love" is a beautiful four-letter term, but this costs immense strength in the people involved. By strength, I mean mental strength.

Sometimes we never understand if the person on the other side loves you the same way you love them. Leave the same way you love them, anxious we become only trying to understand if the other person loves you.

Fumbling, Furtive, didn't I know this was not happening. I got more nervous about how to deal with my reality, reality was totally unlike the fictitious reality of  Cinderella, Ariel, and Belle. "Fictitious Reality"  a perfect example of an oxymoron just like "Selfless Love" or even "True Love".

"Why do we fall in Love ?" my mind picked up this question and kept me disturbed for a while. I knew it for a fact my love for writing made me enjoy writing this piece of nothing. Love for food made my life more driven. Love to wander made me live in ecstasy, imagining I would breathe pure oxygen in the woods again. Love for my family giving me a purpose for this life. Love towards God kept me breathing every moment. But what else did love mean, it meant I would love another being who might love someone else more. Love is divine, if we remove love out of action it becomes normal with love there is an exclamation factor. 

"Does green tea seem bitter for people ?" I was thinking in my mind, no it was not a bit bitter for me, I did not have any change in my reaction sipping that tasteless fluid. I realized I had gotten used to it after years now, just like my life. I tried to teach my mind nothing differs in life after we get accustomed to it. But does our mind work like taste buds?

Who should I seek help? I am not sure it's been years since we started drifting apart but my world still revolves around it. Now I look at it like an ailing patient will I ever get cured of whatever it is. I will not call it a disease... what else can it be... Umm, I know the right word "Addiction", precisely. I know its bad for me but I still can't get rid of it. If God allows to erase something from my life I will drop my memories of him. As I say this my mind trembles with the fear of forgetting him because I still can't make up my mind to delete our messages, forgetting him is way too ahead. I wish letting somebody out of our life is as easy as deleting something from our smart devices. This is the state of my relationship after years of being together and trying to understand.

My family never understood my reluctance, it was just resultant of another. I am ready to be single forever because I am worried will I ever get to love someone as I love him now. Is there a rehabilitation center for toxic love addictions? Love adds an exclamation to your life. Exclamation can be in two ways Happy or Shocking. On the arrival of either there can be ripples, yes ripples bring out the true form water if its clean or dirty. Love helps you believe that dirty water will get clean and you would imagine a day to quench your thirst from the clean water.