I usually don’t really talk about myself and what I’ve been through throughout my life. I always considered myself an unusual girl, a total chaos, a very sensitive soul but never did I ever, consider myself some kind of special.
I do believe it’s very hard for someone to talk about himself because I think one tries to be as a honest as he can be without sounding snob or as if he’s under-estimating himself, yet I vow now to try to be as honest and open as I can be.
So yes, I’ve never considered myself some kind of special or some kind of a genius because I am not. Yes, I’m smart and yet I’m talented especially in art, but it’s not something that makes differ from any other human being. Maybe I just give my all and everything I do but I still believe that many do that too.
Yet, I have never, not for a fraction of a second, not for an instant under-estimated myself and considered myself a failure, because I am not.
I have failed many times but that does not make of me a failure, on the contrary it makes me nothing but better in whichever field I failed.
For instance, I have failed to become the person I thought I would be as a child, but only to become better. I have failed to become a ballerina by obligation, to become a passionate dancer by choice. I have failed to succeed in 16 relationships, but managed to work myself out on my 17th. I have failed to stay friends with many, only to meet others that understood my messy mind. I have failed to become the successful lawyer everyone wanted me to be, to become a bohemian artist, a lost child that really doesn’t know what to do with his life and knowledge, but wants to sacrifice it to make this world a better place.
Basically, I just believe that things always turn out better than expected.
Indeed, though the weather might seem foggy and rainy now, it’s just a temporary phase before you are able to see a rainbow.
You might think I only look at the glass half full, but I’m fully aware that it’s half empty too, it’s just that I don’t see the point of afflicting myself with negative thoughts when I can be satisfied with what is destined to me. Maybe I shouldn’t, I mean that’s all my beliefs, but then again, though I am not sure what is my purpose on this planet, and this thought frightens me a bit, I do believe it is not to walk around with sadness, bur rather with a smile on my face.
So yes, in my opinion you are never fully dressed without a smile, and though your life might not be at its peak right now, always remember that it’s just a temporary phase, to prepare you to something unexpected, something big, that even better than what you thought, because you are great and you deserve to be happy. Never let anything make you feel like you’re less than that.