I'm not perfect. My flaws are even bigger than my compliments. I am more than a curse than a blessing. But it doesn't shame me. My unique shades don't scare me at me. This is my life and I intend to live it as it is.
I know that being with me is not always sunshine and butterflies. Being with me means walking through the fire. I know that my attitude is contagious. My ego is a bitch and my pride is as high as a mountain top. But I don't have to bend my knees just to put sugar on someone's coffee. I don't wake up each day to please everybody.
Living this kind of life is always a challenge. But challenge is my weapon to advance. I am not worried being misinterpreted by many. They can judge me all they want but I won't change my robe just to feed their appetite. I won't put something on my plate that I cannot digest. I won't drink something that I cannot contain. I am full of it.
You see, I am not that great. But I am okay with it. I am great in my own ways. I am great being not so great so why do I have to worry. I don't have to be the best for them to appreciate me. I just have to be me. I don't have to compare myself to others. I have my own pace to cover. My life isn't something that anyone would dare to experience. That's why I don't also wish for anyone to be me. It was given to me because I can handle it. Because this is me.
I am not lucky, just so you know. I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. I wasn't even part of a whole family. I didn't experience a happy childhood. Everything has been a struggle to me but look at me now, I'm still here. I worked hard and crawled all the darkest tunnels of my life just to see the silverlining. I ate dirts and disapppointments for breakfast. I slept with my nightmares for so many years. I see pain as a companion. I see failure as an opportunity to do more. I am not a victor, I am a survivor.
Hence, I don't feel like I have to took pity from others. I don't think that being poor means being weak. I don't think that the lack of resources could stop me from trying. I don't think that society has the say on how I should live my life. Sure, I have insecurities. I have doubts on my capabilities. I have second thoughts about the things that I can and I cannot do. But I learned that there are things that you need to let go just to be happy. There are things that money or wealth can't buy. There are things that family can't afford. There are things that only I , can do for my own sake.
I was given the right to decide on my own at a very young age. Being raised by a single parent, I learned that responsibility is such a jerk. I learned that for every " yes" that I say, there's million of consequences that I have to face. I learned that love and affection are two different things. I also learned that respect is not easy to earn. I learned that in this fast changing world, respect is a rare gem.
Anyways, we all have our own beliefs in life. I am not saying that my perspective in life is same as you or others out there. Our story differs, that's for sure. So, I hope whoever you are, wherever you are and whatever you do, you do it for yourself. You do it for your own good. You do it for your happiness. Don't sacrifice yourself. You owe nothing to the world. But you owe your life to yourself. Make the most out of it.
Be happy. Be you.