I gave up!

I always promised myself I would never give up upon him, whether it was the time he lied to me that now he has someone special in his life or the time he said we are not meant to be together I never gave up upon him. That one percent hope that he is my Chandler made me believe in love. He was the only person who could love the weird me. But one day that dream broke. Those expectations got ruined.No, he did not do anything. With every passing day, I realized he was never in my fate. I have already lived my fairytale with him.I have had my part where I met the perfect guy with the perfect story and now he's gone. Forever!
I am in my dream profession right now. I am leading a life I always wanted. I have the best of friends but every night when I close my eyes my heart says I miss you, sweetheart. I wish I could get that one chance with you and that one chance would have been enough for me to live my whole life with you. I wish I could ever see you again. It's been 8 months and you visited my city thrice but I was so unlucky I could even see you once.
I don't even know why I am writing this today. It is because today I like somebody else. I like him a lot. He is my best friend but I can't say it to him. Because I don't wanna lose him as I lost my Chandler.Because I know he is not in love with me. Because I know confessing him my love   to him will change everything between us.
Today, he looks into my eyes and says I am the best. Today, he stands beside me as if I am that one person he wants to secure from the crowd. Today, I want to hug him as if he would leave the world and I could just feel that moment when I am in his arms. But, still, I can't say anything to him. I will have to take him out of my mind. He is important to me and I would never want to lose him. So falling in love is not my deal, I have understood that. So, hero, I would have fallen in love with you If you would have been in love with me but love is just not my thing and not in my fate.