I have to let go of you and accept that you're now part of my ugly past. I have to understand that I met you for a mere reason. I need to accept the fact that I can't erase you in this world unless I kill you. But I can't kill you, I just can't do that. I know that you have your reasons, I have to believe that.
I have to forgive you in order for me to grow. I have to believe that there's more to life than by just stalking you everyday and remembering the pain that you've caused me. I can't move on if I keep replaying your sin in my head. That's not my sole purpose in life. I know that it won't be easy but I have to take that path. I have to leave you alone.
In the event that you're not yet done ruining me, this time I will let you do it. I won't stop you from hurting me because I am done hurting myself. I just honestly hope that you don't hurt yourself in the future. I am done praying for your mistakes to be gone for good. I am done praying to forget you because I know that it won't happen. I remember everything, I remember you.
But I have to be strong. I have to be strong enough to go on with my life. I have to get up and continue living because this is what I am supposed to do. I wasn't born just to stuck with you. You're my nightmare and I need to wake up. You're my ugly truth and I need to face you in order for me to move forward. You're my obstacle and I must surpass you in order for me to level up. I have to let go of you. I just have to.